One day Chris and I rode our bikes to his house, which was about 3 miles away. I don’t remember exactly where it was, but it was off of a street called Cottonwood. No telling why we rode there, but I remember when we got to his house it was messy, inside and out. I remember looking at the house when we arrived and there were pillows and boxes stacked against a window in the living room. There were oil spots all in the driveway and the front yard was a mixture of weeds and dirt. When we went inside it smelled of cat urine and lemon Pledge. The house had that avocado green sculptured carpet and it was so luxurious to me, but like the driveway, it was stained with brown and yellow spots. Everywhere I looked I saw piles of junk. We ate a can of ravioli that he heated on the stove and went back to Wildwood. On the way home, we rode down to Nonconnah Creek and swam while wearing our pants. Some adults saw us and yelled at us to get out of the water, but we didn’t. In retrospect, it wasn’t a great idea. I was about 6 years old. That’s the last day I remember seeing Chris. I looked for him online a few years ago and I didn’t find him, but found his son. His son was a Juggalo who had warrants out for his arrest.
Thinking back to those days brings back so many memories for me, but one thing happened on Wildwood that I think saved my life. We got a puppy. A Boston Terrier. She was the runt of the litter and wasn’t supposed to live, but she did. I named her Daisy because the day we got her there was a single daisy in our front yard. Our yard never had flowers, but there was one that day. And on that warm May afternoon, I experienced something from that puppy I’d never felt before, unconditional love.





